Friday, June 25, 2010

Topic: Honest Person’s Definition

Last week we were talking about honesty and honest people in my office.
The discussion between me and my superior went as follows:

She:” In my opinion, a person who is honest always tells the truth. But Pakistani people don’t do it. They tell a lie and even if the other person knows they are lying, they don’t accept it”.
Me: “But not all people are like this. Surely there are some good people.”
She: “Like who?”
Me: “I consider myself an honest person”.
She: “Oh really??????”
And I nod my head.
She: “Do u tell lies?”
Me: “Yes, sometimes ………”
She: “And you accept when other person finds you are lying????”
Me: “Yes, I accept my mistakes”.
She “Still you think you are honest person?”
Me: “Yes”.

She starts laughing and left the room. Without listening to what I wanted to say.
I feel really bad that if I tell her that I always speak the truth then it would make me a honest person but in reality, this statement would be a lie.

Because it’s true that mostly I try to speak the truth but sometimes on rare occasions, I do tell a lie but I suck at lying, so mostly people know that I am lying. When they ask about it, I tell the truth. I think I’m courageous as well as honest. Because I accept my mistakes, it doesn’t make me less honest

I didn’t know a single person who would say that he/ she never lied in his / her life.
So isn’t it better that I accept my wrong doing and feel shame in doing so instead of boasting a false fact??????

Hope at least you people understand my point and the new angle of honesty which I’m trying to convey 

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Alice In Wonderland

Most people ask me,
” How is your job going?”
or
“How is your experience?”
These questions remind me of “Alice in wonderland”, a story in which a girl named Alice falls into a rabbit hole and steps into a new world.
While going to my job, I feel like stepping into Alice’s shoes and going to wonderland where nothing is as it seems to be.
It’s a world totally apart from the world I’ve lived in up till now.
Things are so different and difficult for me. People are very cooperative but their way of doing things and mentality is totally different than mine.
I get very confused because all the things I believed in have been altered somehow and have no value in their eyes
Even if they say a simple thing, it seems like riddle to me
And sometimes I wonder if it’s happening to me only or do other feels like this too?
I‘m trying to survive in this wonderland.

Let’s hope that I can do it with head held up high! J

Friday, April 23, 2010

anuo's story :)

Kal meri danton ki surgery hoi thi is wajha say meray dant may bohat dard hora ha tha aur khon bhi nikal raha tha tou ami nay meray liye jetspot mangwai.

Ab woh auno( meray bhanjay ) nay dekhli phir yeh hua k bijya (aunn ki mom) nay auno ko samhjaya k khala ko lag gaya hai is wajha say yeh icecream khala ka hai aur auno man gaya.

Phir jab manay khani shuro ki tou eman(auno’s ki bari behan) agi aur kaha k mujhy bhi chiye tou manay us say bi yahi kaha k meri chot lagi hai tou eman khanay lagi k khala bus may thori si khaon gi aur meray samnay hi beath gi . Ab may itni bhi zalim nahi k khud khaon aur us choti si bachi ko na don tou may aik bite khud lati aur dosri eman ko dayti.

May dosri mangwa bhi nahi sakti thi kun k hamaray area ki light chali gi thi aur dukandar frigh nahi kholtay h baqi kharab ho jain gi khair mujhay bech may khayal ayea k auno bhi bula laati hun .phir manay kaha k choro woh andar kamray may hai, us ko rahnay do.

Khair hua yeh k auno chupkay say bahar ayea tha aur us nay mujhay aur eman ko dekha aur chup chap wapis kamray may ja k phalay bohat sad face bani phir chup chup k ronay lagay us k ma aur baap nay puchnay ki bhi koshish ki lakin woh nahi mana aur rota raha.

Phir bijia nay mujhay bulaya aur pucha k tum nay aun ki koi cheez chini hai manay kaha nahi . Mujhay achanak say yeh khayal ayea k kain is nay humain khatay huye dekh tou nahi liya
Khair woh mujh say bohat buri tarhan kafa ho gaya tha lakin may bhi us ki khala hun , us ko chocolates aur toffee ki bribe day k mana hi liya :) aur us say dubara say dosti kar li :) pata hai us say dono cheeks pay kiss bhi liya takay hamari dosti paki ho jaye :D

Friday, April 9, 2010

Faith

Today someone ask me "What would i do and feel, if i know that the next breath i m abt to draw will be the last."

In reply i close my eyes and start imagine what if there is some toxic gas in my room and i m going to die because of it .

The 1st thing that came into my mind is "I will ask forgiveness from ALLAH and than take the deep breath to feel the life last time :) "

Than I start thinking about weather it is good or bad? Why m I not afraid of dying? I m not very pious person, and not very religious person either than y didn't I feel fear? Why am I ok with weather I live or die?

Than I remember my feeling when i was in 9th, exams are near but my preparation of chemistry is very very bad, it seems like I m going to fail my paper but still I go and give paper by some miracle I pass that exam.

Same is the case with me now, even though I m not prepare but I have faith in ALLAH‘s generous nature and I m hoping that HE would forgive me. Regardless of weather I deserve it or not .
What if ALLAH just forgive me because I have faith in HIM :)

Friday, March 12, 2010

emotions

Kuch arsay say meray zahan may aik baat ghoom rahi thi jo may ab ap logon say share karna cahon gi.

May soch rahi thi k agar hum insani zindagi ko aik mathematical equation consider karain jiss may bohat saray variables hotay hain tou is equation ka sab say complex variable ho ga emotion.

Emotion ki wajha say insani zindagi bohat pacheda (complex) ho jati hai aur hum agar emotion ko hi apni zindagi say nikal dain tou hum inasn hi nahi rahain gay bulkay robots bun jain gay .

Is ka matlab hai k hum ko insan rahay k liye emotion ki zarrorat hai tou is say sabit ho gaya hay hum insanon ki zindagi already kafi complexed hai

Upper say hum insan apni zindagi ko mazeed complex kartay hain jab hum ziyada say ziyada negative emotions ka istamal kartay hain

Ab baat ho jaye k negative aur positive emotions kon kon say hotay hain. Negative emotions may shamil hai gusa, nafrat , badla, takabur wagara aur positive emotions hain mohabat, rahamdili ,darguzar wagara.

In hi sab ki taleem har mazhab deta hai kun k sirf yahi hai jo hamri zindagi ko easy karti hai

Hum insane itnay stupid hain k hum asan cheez ko chor k khud apnay liye mushkilat pida kartay hain aur is ki wajha yeh hai k negative emotions ka impact hamesha kafi ziyada hota hai positive say aur humain us emotion ko ignore karna bohat mushkil lagta hai lakin agar hum woh karnay may kamiyab ho jain tou hamari zindagi bohat asan ho jaye gi.

Tou aj say koshish karain k apni zindagi may positive emtion ko sahmil karnay ki aur apni zindagi ko asan banaye :)

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

DUKH AUR SABAR

may aksar sucha karti thi
kay yeh jo log khatay hain kay us ko bohat baray dukh ka samna karna para
tou aisa kun hota hai kay
agar 2 logon ko aik hi dukh mila ho tou
aik ko apna dukh bohat ziyada lagta hai aur usko lagta hai kay dunya khatam ho gi
jab kay dosray ko dukh tou hota hai lakin itna nahi
phir mujh pay khula kay dukh tou aik hi jisa milta hai
lakin usko humari sabar ki taqat chota yeh bara banati hai

yeh aisa hi ai jasay andira khud koi cheez nahi hai sirf
roshni ki kami ko hum nay andhira kah diya hai
isi tarhan dukh koi cheez nahi hai
sirf humari sabar ki kami aur ziyti usko dukh banati hai